Dear Diary Today I made a decision. I chose me. There comes a time when we have to accept that we cannot make someone love us. I was willing to accept Karate Kid as he was, flaws and all, to have a loving relationship with him. There is nothing that I can do to make … Continue reading Finishing What Was Started – Entry 145

Dear Diary Last Sunday, some well-meaning friends each asked me varied forms of the same question. Each time I struggled to answer their question with certainty. The question was: are you and Karate Kid official now? I'd activated Operation Armageddon but it fell flat on it's face after step 2 of 7 as I didn't … Continue reading Umbrellas For Sale – It’s Raining Men – Entry 143

Dear Diary Let's catch up on everything that's happened since Monday. I did end up replying to most of the men who sent me messages on Monday: To Dance Teacher's: "Heya Anastasia 🙂 You don't love us anymore beautiful. You have gone really quiet, what's wrong 😦 "  I replied with: "Hello Dance Teacher. Thank … Continue reading Practicing My Juggling – Entry 144

Dear Diary This morning I replied to Karate Kid. I wanted to make it clear that I wasn't willing to have my heart broken again face-to-face. A text message would suffice. I replied with: "Hmmm in all honesty, texting is probably going to be easier for me this time" He replied with "What are you … Continue reading Activation of Operation Armageddon – Entry 142

Dear Diary Let's be honest with each other here. The cool, calm and collected Anastasia we both know hasn't been her usual self of recent. The precipitating factor is lack of closure on the situation that is Karate Kid. He sent a message to me this morning saying: "Morning wabbit. Come to the dance party … Continue reading In Case Of Emergency Break Glass – Entry 141

Dear Diary The conversation between Brain and Heart continued after the last diary entry. It was like being trapped on a roller coaster ride that you weren't enjoying and wanting to get off. The next morning I felt exhausted and emotionally fragile. I'd convinced myself that Karate Kid had changed his mind about inviting me … Continue reading I Want Off The Roller Coaster – Entry 140

Dear Diary There's a war taking place between my brain and my heart. Brain is excellent at analysing the situation and building up portfolios filled with facts (some object and others objectively subjective). Heart, on the other hand, likes to feel and hope. Diary, did I ever tell you why I call Karate Kid a … Continue reading Conversations between Head and Heart – Entry 139

Dear Diary The weekend felt like it lasted forever. I would expect to welcome such a novel experience but it's not fun waiting patiently. I was beginning to give up on Karate Kid and doubting his interest in me. Maybe suggesting that we have a conversation about us was too much for him to handle. … Continue reading Deafening Silence – Entry 138

Dear Diary Sunday morning was a testing morning. I was planning on going for a long walk before meeting with a friend. I didn't particularly feel like showering and washing my hair before doing exercise as I generally need to shower afterwards anyway. Because I was meeting someone immediately after I decided to at least … Continue reading Bad Hair Day – Entry 137

Dear Diary Seeing as I have plenty of time to prepare for the inevitable, I thought it prudent to strategize for all possible scenarios. Logic tells me that I will not hear from Karate Kid until at least Monday or Tuesday. He knows that I am busy this weekend and he will likely want time … Continue reading Preparing For And Avoiding The Inevitable – Entry 136