Another One Bites the Dust – Entry 28

Dear Diary

Being cancelled on twice has really hit me hard. In the past couple of days there have been times that I wanted to cry. How could a silly boy have such an effect on me? I really think it’s because I was so happy that I’d met a nice guy who seemed normal.

Yes, you guessed it. Mr Policeman turned out to be a dud. I don’t expect to hear from him again. I’m sure that there were a couple of other girls in the picture. That’s the only way to explain the situation.

On reflection, I wish I hadn’t broken my own rules. A lady waits for the man to initiate contact – always. I was so caught up with feeling as though I was too rude with how I ended the date. In reality, he just wasn’t that into me.

We had settled for dinner on Tuesday evening (Valentine’s day). He sent a message at lunchtime on Tuesday explaining he had overtime. It hurt a bit, but I accepted the situation and empathised with his position. He works in child protection, it must be a hard job. We rescheduled for Sunday evening. I was a little hurt also that his tone wasn’t apologetic, but dismissed it as me being oversensitive.

On Sunday, I was meeting with friends for lunch. Just as I arrived I received a message from Mr Policeman again cancelling that night’s plans for overtime. At least in this message he said he was very sorry. If I wasn’t in public I would have cried. I’d packed a stunning dress to get changed into and had done my make up really nicely for the date that night. He had no idea. My friends were comforting and bought me ice cream. I don’t care what anyone says, it’s great comfort food.

In his text message he had suggested postponing to next Tuesday. I know some would want to give him the benefit of the doubt, but my emotional well-being was at stake. I mean, who cries? I replied with a cold ‘I’m busy next Tuesday, sorry’ (but really not sorry).

It was then that I decided that maybe Karate Kid wasn’t such a bad option after all? I mean, a little bit ugly and a little bit tubby, but fun and a good friend to others. Yes, he was rough with me and hits and pokes me, but maybe it’s just him expressing his interest in me like a partially evolved Neanderthal would? Maybe he would be alright in a relationship? Maybe he could be a doting boyfriend?


Image: [Jana Gouthova] ©

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